Sunday, August 03, 2008

so disappointed.

April writing...

So this morning was Sunday am and I was pretty excited to head to church since we had missed the last two Sundays due to vacation. But again last night I just couldn't fall asleep. This has happened every night since our return from vacation. So when I finally woke up this morning at 10:15 I got up, used the restroom and decided to lay down for a few more minutes. I was just so sleepy. Even though I did get 8 hours of sleep. Well, next thing I know it is 12:40 and Cory is nudging me, to make me aware of that very fact. I couldn't believe it. I guess I had turned off my alarm when I went to the restroom and then decided while I was gone to sleep a little more not remembering that I had already shut it off.

So upsetting.

But this takes me to the other half of this situation. After I he wakes me up at 12:40, I am STILL exhausted. Like I literally can't keep my eyes open tired. My body doesn't feel rested and I fall back asleep. Skip to 2:15 when I actually wake up. I SLEPT 12 HOURS. Lately this has been a trend, not so much the 12 hours part, but the exhausted/sleepy/feel like I can't catch up on sleep part. I feel lately that no matter how long I sleep, I wake up tired. My body feels pretty rested usually, but not my mind. And I am pretty sure that it is not the 3 hour time difference from CA to here that has hurt me, cause there was this issue before vacation. So I it's not that I am a jetlag lightweight!

I don't know if I need to look into a new pillow, haha. Or if I need to start on new vitamins or what. But this is not going to work for me. I have such a desire to be able to get up an hour before I have to be to work (since I don't have to leave the house till 9 am!) but I just can't seem to get myself out of bed. It's horrible. I am also really nappy. I mean for the most part I have been fighting that desire to nap as soon as I get home each workday, but still. What is wrong with me???

And to answer any lingering questions that may have a connection to this subject...NO I am not pregnant. Auntie F just solidified that one (boo her) and NO I am not depressed or unhappy with my life and trying to sleep it away and NO our bed is not uncomfortable. I just don't get it.

So I deal today with my disappointment in sleeping through church...again. (yes it has happened before) and probably a little bit of Cory's disappointment as well. I know he hates to miss church, but when you work midnights, there isn't much choice. And I know he looks forward to hearing about how it went while he was home sleeping. But I can't answer those questions for him today.

I just don't know.


Brittany said...

This probably won't make you feel any better because I know that I don't, but I totally slept through church as well. I just could not fall asleep last night and finally made it to bed around 5 this morning. I am hoping and praying that tonight will be a different situation. Here is to us getting to bed early.....=)

Goldie said...

Taking additional b vitaims could help. Ginseng is also pretty good. Excercise helps to with engery. maybe not the first week, but after that you will notice the difference. If you are already exercising, kick it up a knotch for additional cardio.

Becky said...

Maybe you should talk to your doc because there might be something going on that you just don't know about. That's my suggestion.

- Sarah :-) said...

I TOTALLY know what you mean!!! Do you remember how tired I was for like 3 weeks straight? Yeah... well somehow it finally ended, but I still have moments. Whatever solution you find PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE share it with me. It's awful!!

All the advice I got was to write down what was on my mind... blah blah. Good advice, if there WAS anything on my mind!! But what if it's blank?! I totally feel your pain...

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